One evening Babaji was interrupting the kirtan and giving a speech sitting on His assan in Herakhan.
I was standing next to Him listening attentively.
At a certain point He said that it is important to be determined to reach your goal. My mind drifted off……
Since I had met Babaji I had given up all goals as well as the idea of a goal.
I also thought that this was the whole point on the path of surrender I was following now I had been so fortunate to meet Him in this life.
When the speech was over and the kirtan resumed I was still pondering on all of this.
At a certain point I leaned over to Babaji and said: “Baba, you say to be determined to your goal but I have no goal since I live here with You.”
He smiled looked deeply into my eyes and beat on His chest and said “ I am your goal “ !
That certainly made my day………
Well 33 years have passed and I have reflected on this from many angles. No big revelation and no wave of ecstasy has shifted my vision into a permanent Divine harmonic state. How close I was to Him for these 3 years I spend with Him at that time, He did not appear to me nor did I have any 3D visions apart from several dreams through the years.
“I am you” Babaji said to us, but from how I experienced Him I do not feel anything like that now. I do have experiences with Babaji being also now very very close to me but I am not talking about this here.
After His, for me completely unexpected Samadi, I was somehow waiting a few years for His return until I realized that this waiting for Him cannot not be His message. I saw how, after His Samadi, many people had deep experiences with Babaji and also now and even without Muniraj’s guidance this is still happening.
The marvelous years being with Him had left me with quite some attachment for His form. How incredibly wonderful that was, the main thing is to realize Him in my heart, formless and timeless and to be aware of that 24 hours a day .
Babaji did not want to create another religion, He said, but He honored all religions. As insecure individuals we love to be part of a group. If we are born into a religion this is even more so. Our personality, our ego loves these belief systems and defends our religion over the other one, often till death. In the monotheistic religions this is most evident but since it springs from our ego it is present in us as people and it is therefore also present in Santa Dharma and Buddhism. Whatever Babaji has taught us about no cast and creed and that there should be no differences between us, our fears push us to highlight the differences between us and “the others” in our restless minds again and again. This is also our yoga, our sadhana and spiritual practice: to become aware of these processes inside of us.
Babaji has and is showing us the way to calm our mind, to direct our actions toward seva, that is serving others. As His devotees we speak about Truth, Simplicity and Love but if we get excited if somebody puts his shoes or wears the wrong dress in the wrong place and convey this with frustration. We really need to check with ourselves if this is Babaji’s message we are expressing. And this applies to any action we perform in HIS name. If Babaji did not want to create another religion, we better not start doing one now in His name. When we seek Him with Love in our heart and try to let go of all the concepts in our mind He will surely be there for you.
Bhole Baba ki Jai !
Raghuvir